Sunday, April 27, 2008

NC Blues

As I sit here wide awake in the wee hours of the morning as I read a past blog, I've become depressed. It seemed like just yesterday I was in SD, trying to fulfil my dreams, and becoming successful. Now I've been brought back to reality, and back in the struggle of getting my life back together. During that time while I was in SD, so much went on, the fires, meeting new people, losing out on job opportunities, and just daily activities of just trying to get by. Now I'm back in NC, trying harder, and working as hard as I can to return to the place I love, and to get my life back in order. Now its just getting harder, and harder. My current job is cutting back on hours, I haven't been getting any modeling work, and I'm just trying to get my head straight on love issues. Sometimes I'm looking for that sign, that light from God to show me where my path is, and what I should do. At times I feel I've probably missed it, and I'm just repeating the cycle, and until I find that sign I'll just be in the shit hole til I do. Well, I'm getting sleepy now. Plus I have to get some rest so I can go to the Dogwood festival...>WOOHOOO, the only great thing happening in NC @_@...UGHH Get me out of this PLACE!!!!